Dear Mom,

 I know you can hear me, that you are in an altered state of consciousness and that as such, you can hear everything that is going on around you.

I want to let you know that I love you.  You are an earthen angel. You have always done your best to do everything that you thought God wanted for you.  I know you gave up much of yourself because you are an angel, that having peace was always more important than being right. I know that you would choose to be quiet rather than chance hurting someone’s feelings because you were a gentle spirit, an angel here on earth.

Know that I have always loved you and understood you as only a daughter can understand you, the essence of your being. I know because I have your same gentle spirit and I feel it. I wish I had talked with you more and gotten to know you better.

I know these past couple of years when I would visit and you would sleep a lot that you were connecting with God or the universal consciousness.  You wanted peace and love and to be with God. I knew even then your end was near.

I want you to know you truly are special, an angel from God, who has lived your life as best you knew how to do through the years and that your purpose here on earth has been completed, that you have raised your family and done a wonderful job.  

I want you to know that the medical industry has been doing  best to  keep you alive even though painful to you when your spirit cried out to move on and be with God. Your deep sleep and connection with God and the universe was peaceful, you  were at peace, on a higher plane and it was ok. I am glad you were at  peace.   

I want you to know that I have been putting you in a protective aura of love and light with angels watching over you for some time now, that I have known for some time that you are ready to go home to God.

I want you to know that when you are ready, you can just tell God you are ready to go home to heaven and release yourself to go and be with him and the angels, that it is ok to leave us here on earth. We will miss you but love you always and you will never be forgotten. You will just be on a different plane on the other side of  the veil. We will all miss you, but will be ok. Do not worry about all of us.

Synchronicity and finances!

During my burnout phase, another concern was money. My attitudes about money had become   bad for a variety of reasons.  I believed money was the root of all evil. As I became more burned out, and felt the reason for the burnout was overwork, I became even felt even more badly about money.  I believed making money was a sin, especially when I became sick from overworking. My basic health habits were as bad as well, which did not help matters, but made them worse.  I also believed with the innocence of a child that if I would just trust that money would come .

As I tried to recreate all of my life attitudes (I had lost them through my extreme burn out-you can view a list of my symptoms on my website, ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com), I had through meditation, synchronicity and visualization, brought myself a long way with health, so I started the same process with regard to money. I started with focusing on money and working with affirmations about money.

As I tried to shift my attitudes about money, I had a friend with good intentions tell me that I should not focus on money. He was concerned I would not honor my spirit in the process. Since I was pure spirit and had lost thousands of dollars by being in a state if dis-ease that would probably have never happened, but again because I trusted someone else’s opinion more than my own, I started feeling bad about money again and stopped focusing on it for another couple of years. This catapulted me even more into a place of lack. Eventually I came to the realization that I needed money and it was ok to focus on money, or income in my life.

The truth is that we need to have balance in our lives and that money is part of that balance.  Our health, finances, spirituality and mind are all part of us.  Money is energy and necessary for us to take care of ourselves. I have many books on my website related to finances.  Once you have finances in order, you can work more on other areas of your life again. For me, reclaiming my spirit, health and mind worked all together and I did many things to work on these 3 all the way in coming back. The finances were the last piece of the puzzle. I am currently creating my finances, working with my passion, which is helping others through this process.

I  did this whole process of coming back through prayer, meditation, synchronicity, affirmations and visualization. I was always one of those people that if I understood what I was doing and why, I could always perform better. I wanted to be Christ like and spiritual, but had faulty perceptions because I only learned what I should do or should not do from the church and did not have comprehension of the why. While I am no longer angry at the church, today I understand the why. It is unfortunate that I believe many clergy do not understand the why of the teachings either.

I invite you to check out my website, ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com  and read the books listed at the bottom of my library page. They all are related to the law of attraction and creating wealth in our lives. If you are interested in attending a workshop, please let me know as I would love to work with you in recreating your life. Please feel free to email me at Rhonda@ModernDaySpiritualJourney or call me at 314-322-4494.

Cultural norms!

As a culture we have in an effort to move toward what feels good become irresponsible and moved away from true customer service,  moving way too much toward ego and away from spirit. Part of this has been the result of burnout of employees who are working too much and do not have time to rejuvenate their spirit.  The intent was more productivity, but productivity was actually minimized because when one is run down they become sick and their level of productivity is lessened. So much in our culture has become egoic, a sense of moving away from spirit. This sense of moving toward ego and away from spirit, not  honoring our own spirit as well as the spirit of others,  is the reason we as a culture are encompassed by negative energy.

Every thought we have is a prayer or intent, so if as a culture we focus on the negative in our lives we will attract negative events into our lives. Many have been caught up in the negativity of the media (whose role is to make us of aware of negative things so they can be changed).; the movie industry while making some awesome movies had made many movies of destruction and negativity, polluting our minds. Even marketing has become in your face, being obnoxious.

The result is negative psychic energy from the general public. We now pay for something and listen to commercials. The result has been a dumbing down of America as people zone out  and do not pay attention to what is going on around them . We have companies who want us to listen to their messages and push 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 getting caught in a cycle and wasting the time of their customers (who are their boss) In an effort to save money. This movement away from true customer service has resulted in  negative  psychic energy.

When that happens we as consumers will only purchase what we need and will not honor companies who we feel take advantage of us. The anger and negative energy will eventually make them less profitable since love and gratitude are the highest frequency. When a company gets on a lower frequency their profitability will be lessened.

 It is so important to stay on a high frequency if we want to attract goodness into our lives.  The church knew we needed to have time to rejuvenate our spirit. Hence, why there were laws about not working on Sunday in times past. The ancients knew people would get sick from overwork and that they knew people needed time to rejuvenate  their spirits.

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Should you purchase items from my website, I will receive a small stipend, which helps maintain my website. You can click on particular books, links or the Amazon link to purchase books not on my site and other items or you can click on the Endless Link to purchase 800 brand items at great prices. 

If you feel I can assist you on your journey and would like to contact me, please feel free to email me at Rhonda@ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com.

I have been a real estate professional in the St Louis area for the past nine years and have been chosen by St Louis Magazine as a “5 Star Best in Client Satisfaction” agent for the past three years and am licensed with Keller Williams Southwest in St Louis, MO. I provide a high level of service and my clients become my friends. Should you wish to use my services or need a referral for the area you live in, please feel free to email me Rhonda@RhondaBrackett.com.

Working with a candle for focus and as a form of meditation

Working with a candle is a great meditation tool. Watching the flame will soothe your spirit. I like to use white candles or a selenite tea lite candle as it glows (which can be purchased from my website, ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com).

When the weather is extremely hot or cold and being outdoors in nature (another great way to soothe your spirit) is difficult, working with a candle will produce the same results as being in nature. Some people are frightened of this process.  

I always call in the angels in and feel their presence. Know they are there and feel their presence and love. Angels are God’s messengers and will be with you if you invite them into your life.

When you first gaze at the candle thoughts will come and go. Gazing will help you process your thoughts. Just let them pass and stay focused on the flame. Eventually your mind will clear.  If you gaze often and for long periods of time universal truths will flow into your mind.

A  great way to meditate more deeply is to light a candle, setting a timer for 10 minutes. Set the candle about a foot from you and level with your eyes. Just gaze at the candle for about 10 minutes. Then close your eyes and meditate. This process will help open your third eye so your subconscious mind will be more receptive.  

A great exercise to help you focus your mind is to light a candle, setting a timer for 10 minutes. Gaze at the candle and focus on it. Every time your mind drifts mark a stroke on a piece of paper. Doing this process daily will help you focus your attention. When my mind was scattered due to extreme exhaustion, this process helped me tremendously.

For more great tips on spiritual healing, visit my website, ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com.

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Should you feel the information I provide is helpful and purchase a book through Amazon or items from Endless on my site, I will receive a small stipend, which helps maintain my website.  

If you feel I can assist you on your journey and would like to contact me, please feel free to email me at Rhonda@ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com.

I have been a real estate professional in the St Louis area for the past nine years and have been chosen by St Louis Magazine as a “5 Star Best in Client Satisfaction” agent for the past three years and am licensed with Keller Williams Southwest in St Louis, MO. I provide a high level of service and my clients become my friends. Should you wish to use my services or need a referral for the area you live in, please feel free to email me Rhonda@RhondaBrackett.com.

Spiritual depletion, burnout, meditation and synchronicity!

 When I was going through this stressful time in my life I went to medical doctors. My primary physician suggested I take a vacation. At that time I had a newspaper distributorship in a rural area that required many hours and for me to be up all night 7 days per week. It seemed impossible to take off as I did not have anyone trained to take over my route and because it was in a rural area it was not very profitable.  I went to a psychologist and was told that my cognative was good and he did not think there was anything wrong. My counselor told me I was doing too much, that I was a human being not a human doing. This counselor suggested I try meditation, which I found very beneficial. He also suggested I try a support group, which I intuitively felt I should not do, but because I trusted he knew more than I did, I went and bottomed out even more as my attitudes were healthier than the attitudes of those in the group.  I went to a urinary specialist because my bladder ached and I had a need to urinate every 5 minutes and was told I was drinking too much water.  I had read a book called “The Yeast Syndrome” about yeast overgrowth (which I had) and knew that may taking medications had contributed to my yeast problems. I decided I needed to heal through alternative methods and trust that God and the angels would help me.

I meditated every day, sometimes as long as 4 hours as my mind was so exhausted that I could not function. Without a doubt meditation helped me tremendously. Meditation connects us with God or the universal consciousness and helps us with our healing. In the beginning I meditated without an agenda. As I meditated more and more, I found myself drawn to focusing  on the word “health” .  I was led through synchronicity to many alternative methods of healing and books to help me shift cultural attitudes.  

It took 2 counselors to convince me I was like a lawn mower that had overheated and that I needed to take a break from my schedule of working 7 days per week with 4 hours of sleep each day. The newspaper had been harassing me to sell my route and the added stress was taking more of a toll on my already stressed health. I decided my health was most important and sold my route so I could begin my healing.

I had through an extreme ethic of work pushed myself to extreme exhaustion. And while the newspaper had a part in it, I allowed it by staying in that place and participating by having ownership for 19 years. My mind was gone, I could not focus or concentrate. Everything I stopped doing was gone. All that was there was spirit and ego.

Through this process I had tried to get back to the church. I talked to the priest in my parish who chastised me for not going to church (I delivered newspapers Saturday evening and Sunday morning, sleeping from around 6 am to 11 am) and for not having children. At a time when I was spiritually depleted and desperately needed someone to reach out to, the priest let me down, upholding the concepts of the church. A few months later I attended “convert classes” as I was still trying  to get back to church.  I was 45 when the priest told me hell did not exist. I had tried to be perfect so I would not go to hell and that was part of my spiritual depletion.  I also attended a bible study that took the bible literally for 4 years, which did not help my spiritual depletion but rather plummeted me into more depression.

Our traditional methods were not helping me. I had completely burned out because of working too much, divorce, cultural attitudes, thinking that if I denied myself of anything that felt good it would make me more spiritual, and wanting to be close to God.  I had followed the golden rule “Do Unto Others As You Would Have Them Do Unto You”. The problem  was that I did not understand what it meant in a way that I could effectively implement it in my life. I thought that Jesus suffered and that I needed to suffer to be “Christ like”. I had a need for a deep spiritual connection.

I felt let down by the medical industry and the church. My family did not know what was going on as I had become very quiet. My mind was gone and there was nothing in my mind to say. I spent my time being embarrassed about where I was and trying to hide it. I did not look sick.

I decided to follow my spirit in everything I did and moved only toward things that came to me through synchronicity. Today I am led to share my experience and my knowledge with others. My coming back is a true miracle. Today I am painfree (I was in excruciating pain due to the stress) and balanced in my attitudes and life. I did not realize what caused the pain, but as my life unfolded, it all became obvious to me. Please feel free to visit my website ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com for symptoms and tips on alternative methods of healing.

If you are in a similar place, the most important thing one can do is to meditate and follow their synchronicity. Please know that you can return from the “Dark Night of Your Soul” if you follow your spirit and move toward those things that resonate for you.

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Should you purchase a book through Amazon or items from Endless on my site, I will receive a small stipend, which helps maintain my website. You can click on particular books, links or the Amazon link to purchase books not on my site and other items or you can click on the Endless Link to purchase 800 brand items at great prices. 

If you feel I can assist you on your journey and would like to contact me, please feel free to email me at Rhonda@ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com.

If you would like to make a donation, please send checks or money orders to Modern Day Spiritual Journey, PO Box 238, St Louis, MO 63025. I greatly appreciate your gift and acknowledgment that you find my site helpful to you.  Don’t forget to check out my shopping links where you can purchase great items at great prices from Amazon and Endless.

I have been a real estate professional in the St Louis area for the past nine years and have been chosen by St Louis Magazine as a “5 Star Best in Client Satisfaction” agent for the past three years and am licensed with Keller Williams Southwest in St Louis, MO. I provide a high level of service and my clients become my friends. Should you wish to use my services or need a referral for the area you live in, please feel free to email me Rhonda@RhondaBrackett.com.

Being in the flow when selling your home

 Have I mentioned that I sell real estate? I have been selling real estate for about 9 years. Real estate because I could set my own hours was a good place to heal my spirit after extreme burnout. It was a playing ground if you will to recreate my life.

I felt it was important to receive a high level of education so that I could provide a high level of service for my buyers and sellers.  Receiving education is always important, actually in any industry as one cannot provide a high level of service and expertise if they do not have the knowledge to do so.  I have taken the time to get the knowledge I need to best represent my clients.  I have been chosen by St Louis Magazine “5  Star Program” for “Best in Client Satisfaction, of which only 4-5% of Ythe agents receive.

My listings are generally under contract within 30 to 60 days. While the market is slower and has shifted, there is still much activity and there are buyers purchasing homes.  When one sells they will take less for their home than they would have when the market was good, but they will pay less when they purchase their new home. It is simple economics of supply and demand. When a home is new on the market, the first 2-3 weeks is key. That is when the buyer pool (people looking for homes) is best as people who are looking will then look at that home. If it is not priced according to the market, a home will not sell.

I am currently working with a seller who had paid more for their home than the market would bear right now. Of course he wanted to try the higher price. I suggested a price  more in line with the market, but he decided he wanted to price it  at a price more in line with what he paid for it. He also was not really ready to sell and did not adjust the price for at least 6 months. He had furniture that that did not really look good in photos as there was much blue and it was large for the great room area, but wanted to leave the furniture in the home. After about  6 months, he started reducing the price in increments. However the market had shifted even more. Of course by that time, potential buyers were wondering what was wrong with the home because it had not sold. In fact potential buyers will wonder what is wrong with the home after 3-4 months of it being on the market. Close to a year after being on the market he has priced his home substantially less and is priced less than another comparable until sold for.

Home sweet home

What is the point here?

It is always a good idea to ask your agent for suggestions. I  will make suggestions but do not make suggestions if a seller does not seem open to them.  This particular seller had ideas about how he wanted to approach selling his home.  A seller and agent should work together to achieve the goal of the home being sold. That means asking the agent’s opinion about how to best market, stage and price your home and then working with your  agent with a system in place that will insure the sale of their home for the most money in a timely manner. 

Once a home looks its best and is priced according to the market, it is important  to have a positive attitude. According to the Law of Attraction, when one has a positive attitude  the energies flow better and your home will sell faster and for more money.  When one has a negative attitude about their home selling, they restrict the energy and it will take longer for the home to sell and it will sell for a lower price. And then there is gratitude. Gratitude and love put us on the highest frequency and our lives will be in the flow when we stay on the frequency of love and gratitude.

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Should you purchase a book through Amazon or items from Endless I will receive a small stipend, which helps maintain my website. You can click on particular books, links or the Amazon link to purchase books not on my site and other items or you can click on the Endless Link to purchase 800 brand items at great prices. 

If you feel I can assist you on your journey and would like to contact me, please feel free to email me at Rhonda@ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com.

I have been a real estate professional in the St Louis area for the past nine years and have been chosen by St Louis Magazine as a “5 Star Best in Client Satisfaction” agent for the past three years and am licensed with Keller Williams Southwest in St Louis, MO. I provide a high level of service and my clients become my friends. Should you wish to use my services or need a referral for the area you live in, please feel free to email me Rhonda@RhondaBrackett.com.

The “C” word and acidity!

An older woman I am very close to  has been in the hospital. She is in remission and a small cell carcinoma survivor of 12 years. She has had phlegm for a long time, several months. And while going to the doctor they only recently did an x-ray to find she has pneumonia. She also has been having a sore throat and a recurrent bladder infection which medication seems to help, but it does not seem to go away permanently. While she has been in the hospital she has been given many rounds of antibiotics which seems to help her, even though she is still very weak.

In her room was a young woman of 37 years with cancer who was taken to the hospice area and did not make it. It saddens me that such a young woman is losing her life to cancer, especially when I think it can be prevented. I think all doctors are well intended, but do not seem to have knowledge of preventative methods of healing. On the days I was at the hospital and paying attention to the meals brought in, there was never a day where the foods were alkaline foods.

A cousin recently died from a blood cancer in her 50’s. Another friend told me of a friend who has a bulging disk and is in so much pain they are on morphine. Another friend has an 11 year old who has cancer (I suspect from allergy medication). Another friend has teeth that are rotting and is in much pain.  They do not realize that they could reverse or shift their lives by taking care of themselves.

 I could go on and on with instances of people around me who are affected with dis-eases in their bodies, all of which I believe are related to stress, emotional and physical.  I believe cancer is related to acidity in our body which comes from a variety of causes.

While I was never diagnosed with cancer, my bodyand muscles were racked with pain.  My own problem with acidity came when I went through a time in my life where I had much stress which was due working too much and not taking care of myself through basic things like exercising, drinking enough water, eating healthy food and lack of sleep. At that time I had a variety of dis-eases(they are listed on my website, ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com). It was a process for me, to uncover what was going on and bring myself back into balance. I have read and heard from many sources (this is all coming out in the news now) that acidity is also related also drugs and chemicals on our food. If we are in balance, we might not be affected so adversely by all of these things, however if we are under a lot of stress and our immune system is down, then we are more prone to  dis-ease. I personally believe all dis-ease is related to stress and acidity in some form.

So what can we do to help acidity?  The first thing I would do is to test my alkaline level with test strips (I use Natures Sunshine Products, but there are many companies that offer good products). Once you ascertain that you are acidic, then there are products that will help balance you. Chloraphyl, Kidney Drainage,Lymphatic Drainage, Ultimate Green Zone, and calcium are a few  things that will help (all available from Natures Sunshine Products).  Taking care of oneself through proper diet is key here. That means limiting  soda, sugar and enriched flour. Many items in our culture have been over processed and have no nutritional value, so you need to be careful of what you purchase when out and try to eat  healthily both at home and while dining out. Green vegetables are best to help alkalize. I purchase collard and kale and eat it for breakfast every morning. The basics, exercise, diet, water and sleep are all important as not doing these things will affect you.  Colon hydrotherapy is a great way to help  get toxins out of your body. I personally did colon hydrotherapy for about 2 years and every bid of muscle and bone pain in my body disappeared. To find a good provider, contact your local health food market.

The bottom line is that we need to be responsible for ourselves. The medical industry is here to help us, but they cannot do simple things like exercise  or eat for us. It is up to us.

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Should you purchase a book through Amazon or items from Endless  I will receive a small stipend, which helps maintain my website. You can click on particular books, links or the Amazon link to purchase books not on my site and other items or you can click on the Endless Link to purchase 800 brand items at great prices. 

If you feel I can assist you on your journey and would like to contact me, please feel free to email me at Rhonda@ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com.

If you would like to make a donation, please send checks or money orders to Modern Day Spiritual Journey, PO Box 238, St Louis, MO 63025. I greatly appreciate your gift and acknowledgment that you find my site helpful to you.  Don’t forget to check out my shopping links where you can purchase great items at great prices from Amazon and Endless.

I have been a real estate professional in the St Louis area for the past nine years and have been chosen by St Louis Magazine as a “5 Star Best in Client Satisfaction” agent for the past three years and am licensed with Keller Williams Southwest in St Louis, MO. I provide a high level of service and my clients become my friends. Should you wish to use my services or need a referral for the area you live in, please feel free to email me Rhonda@RhondaBrackett.com.

A business who honors employees spirit!

 I found myself stopping by Hobby Lobby today to see what selections were available for a picture frame for a water color of a home I sold that is closing this week.  Since I was in the area today, on a Sunday, it seemed a perfect time to stop by. Imagine my surprise to find the lot empty. At first I thought business was slow. As I drove by the front door to see the hours, I noticed it was closed on Sundays.

I smiled as I read the notice of their hours on their doors. Good for them! I am so glad to know that there are large businesses honoring their employees and the spirits of their employees. I am grateful and heartfelt and join them in honoring their employees. Everyone deserves a day off to rejuvenate their spirit and honor their God in accordance with their belief system.

Unfortunately in our culture, many people are burned out and exhausted because they do not have the opportunity to rejuvenate and honor their spirit. I am hopeful that Hobby Lobby is setting a trend for big business. Hooray for them! As for me and my frame, I plan to stop by tomorrow when they are open to see about my frame!

Meditation, visualization and synchronicity in our life!

 As I meditated with a focus on health I was led to different alternative healing modalities through synchronicities in my life. I did not realize the importance of the synchronicities at first.

I had chronic stomach knots and  chest pains that resulted from years of overwork. I knew they were anxiety related, but since owned a newspaper distributorship which resulted in me being up all night and make deliveries 7 days per week, depleting my sleep,

It took two counselors to convince me I was like a lawn mower that had over heated and needed to rest before selling my distributorship. After selling my business of 19 years I took a break so I could begin the process of healing. I had no idea that this total process would take several years. I had many other physical symptoms as well which you can see on my website, ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com if you are interested.

 I would meditate 4 hours per day or more because I was so depleted that I could not do much else. I intuitively knew that the chest pains and knots in my stomach were related to doing too much without a break for too long. I would meditate on the word health and visualize them both being gone. Within two months the pangs in my stomach and chest pains were gone.  I want  to encourage you to have tests run if you are having chest pains as I think it is a good idea to know what your ailments are so you can work on them and get appropriate medication if necessary while you work with other modalities.

Another instance of the visualization that was not health related was when I needed a different vehicle. I would focus on a vague idea of the vehicle I wanted.  I was not real clear what style, or colors.  My mechanic, who knew I was looking and what price range called me one day and told me about a vehicle. I went to look at it and it was the perfect vehicle for me. It was a beautiful red Jeep Cherokee Limited Edition with gold trim.  The vehicle was much nicer and prettier than I could have ever envisioned.

As I recreated my life, I decided only to follow my inner spirit, what I was led by God to do.  I was totally amazed at the wonderful methods of alternative healing that came to me, allowing me to heal my spirit, mind and health. I did not realize at that time that when I meditated with a mantra or focus that I was actually visualizing and attracting what I wanted through that process. As I started working with the process of meditation, visualization and synchronicity and realized the benefit of it, I progressed and healed totally. I continue to use these methods daily to recreate my life.

Today, I know that this process is based on the universal principle is the Law of Attraction.

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Should you purchase a book through Amazon or items from Endless  I will receive a small stipend, which helps maintain my website. You can click on particular books, links or the Amazon link to purchase books not on my site and other items or you can click on the Endless Link to purchase 800 brand items at great prices. 

If you feel I can assist you on your journey and would like to contact me, please feel free to email me at Rhonda@ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com.

If you would like to make a donation, please send checks or money orders to Modern Day Spiritual Journey, PO Box 238, St Louis, MO 63025. I greatly appreciate your gift and acknowledgment that you find my site helpful to you.  Don’t forget to check out my shopping links where you can purchase great items at great prices from Amazon and Endless.

I have been a real estate professional in the St Louis area for the past nine years and have been chosen by St Louis Magazine as a “5 Star Best in Client Satisfaction” agent for the past three years and am licensed with Keller Williams Southwest in St Louis, MO. I provide a high level of service and my clients become my friends. Should you wish to use my services or need a referral for the area you live in, please feel free to email me Rhonda@RhondaBrackett.com.

Meditation and synchronicity

 When I first started my journey I was afraid of so many things that the church indicated were bad including spiritual beings on the other side of the veil. I had learned that everything outside the church was bad, that it was a sin to explore things outside the scope of the church. I learned there was only one way. As  one who had a sensitive spirit and conscience, I always wanted to do things right and honor the beliefs of the church as total truths. I felt bad about my humanness, everything that the church considered a sin. I felt badly about everything I had ever done that was not totally in line with their beliefs, which deflated my self esteem even more than it already was. 

From a really young age I learned it was not okay to feel good about anything. I had a need to feel spiritual, connected with God and spirit and the church did not fulfill that need. I would drift to church trying to make it work, then feel bad and drift away from the church. I tried several times to get back to church but instead of feeling good it felt bad and after my spirit feeling bad long enough, I would withdraw from the church because it was not making me feel good or spiritual in any way. I was drawn to metaphysics in my teens  but then  read something about it being a sin and decided not to pursue iit, even though there was something there that felt right to my spirit.  I cycled in and out of the church several times   in cycles of  7 to 10 years.

The last time I decided not to go to church and follow the golden rule “Do Unto Others As You Would Have Them Do Unto You”.  I loved doing for others and it felt good. In my desire to be Christ like, I started denying myself of many normal things as I believed that suffering would make me more spiritual and bring me closer to being Christ like. While there were many things that led to this process much of it was attitudinal. I was following the bible based on my perception.

What followed was total spiritual depletion and burn out. I was truly in the “Dark Night Of My Soul” with many symptoms, depression, pain in my muscles and bones, and more. Please see my website, ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com for a complete list of dis-eases.  My mind was exhausted and childlike. All that was there was spirit and ego. In an effort to rest because I was doing too much, I let go of behaviors which made everything worse. I was not trusting my intuition as I trusted that others knew more than I did, which plummeted me even more into my descent to the “Dark Night Of My Soul”.  I then fell into a relationship with someone I knew was not right for me, but was too exhausted to get out of it. I plummeted even more.

I needed to get to this place in spiritual depletion before I would let go of the beliefs I had with regard to the church. Coming back was a process which lasted several years.

The first thing  that I did was meditation with a focus on health as a Mantra. By meditating with a focus on health, I was drawn through synchronicity to all of the other modalities that helped me heal my spirit, mind and body. If you are in a place of spiritual depletion, meditate and follow the synchronicities that come up for you.  I invite you to check out my website, ModernDaySpiritualJourney.com to see what resonates for you. It is all important and part of the total package of reclaiming your spirit, mind and health.

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I have been a real estate professional in the St Louis area for the past nine years and have been chosen by St Louis Magazine as a “5 Star Best in Client Satisfaction” agent for the past three years and am licensed with Keller Williams Southwest in St Louis, MO. I provide a high level of service and my clients become my friends. Should you wish to use my services or need a referral for the area you live in, please feel free to email me Rhonda@RhondaBrackett.com.